I find that the older I get the more I reflect on my mortality. I sometimes wonder about the finality of death. Is that the end? Is there no such thing as after life that my faith describes in the bible? Was all of that just a fairy tale? When we draw our last breath our consciousness ends and only our loved ones are left with the grief. We lost a 10 year old daughter to cancer. Man, I do not wish that on my worst enemy. I am sorry to hear about your diagnosis. I hope and pray that you find peace and healing. Thanks for sharing.